|ERNESTO AUGUSTIN BARELA and daughter Crystal 1982|
Written by Ernie's and my daughter, Crystal Sincoff from FACEBOOK. T. Jan
"RIP - Ernesto Augstine Barela
.by Crystal Sincoff on Monday, October 31, 2011 at 2:47pm.This was not as I expected. The feelings I am having. I have not talked to my father since I was in college and it was a strained relationship then. I don’t have many father daughter memories to fall back on with a smile. I did not get along well with him...
Am I crying for the little girl who remembers riding on her father’s shoulders as we go to cut down a Christmas tree up at Mt. Spokane? Or the girl who remembers her father tinkering with a car engine, while she sits at the wheel pretending to drive? Or the man he was that I never really got to know? The man my mother fell in love with. I wish I knew that man. The man who made my mother smile. The man I only got glimpses of.
My father was a putterer. He puttered around the garage, fixing things. He puttered in the yard, growing things. He was actually quite good with fruit trees, berries, gardens, plants. It was here that my father nurtured, not with people.
I don’t know what happened to my dad in Vietnam…but it made him hard. It made his ability to be a father, a husband, a happy person, impossible. I mourn for the loss of that person he could have been. The relationship we never had.
It is 2011 and my dad served in Vietnam before I was born. More than 40 years after that war it was Agent Orange that killed him."
Found on YOUTUBE, from Thea Whalen..