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Change by Crystal Sincoff on Tuesday, March 15, 2011 at 10:09pm
.Tomorrow I will wake with one thing on my mind. This is the day that Shawn…died. The word is so heavy. Heavy with meaning. Heavy with love. Heavy with feelings. Heavy with emotion. Heavy with fear. Heavy with hope. Heavy with change.
I had to wake from that day and face a life of change. A life forever different. Forever better for having known you. Forever brighter for having seen your smile. Forever better for having heard your jokes. I woke forever stronger for having known your love. For that I am grateful. I could not have gotten through the past two years without your love. For those memories and feelings that will always be with me. That I can share your bits of wit and wisdom and by doing so keep you alive in my heart and bring you to the hearts of others.
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| Shawn Sincoff by Crystal Sincoff cc |
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
‘til the landside brought it down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin’ ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I don’t know
Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’
‘cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I’m getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb the mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
The landslide will bring it down
I heard this song recently and thought of you. Thought of how life is change. How time passes, feelings, desires, wants, our day to day changes. The way I thought 2 years ago. The day I held you for the last time. The day we sang to each other. The last time I heard your voice, saw your smile. How time changes this memory. Shifts the story. There used to be a crack in my heart when I spoke of it. A sigh inside me. A hurt. The ache has faded. My heart has mended, but you are so dearly missed. Your wisdom, your thoughtfulness, generosity and caring...
I am so grateful for you. It was inevitable that your death would change me. When my chapter with you ended I could find the strength to move on to the next letter, the next word, the next sentence, paragraph…This would not have happened if you had not loved me well and embraced who I am and encouraged me to be nothing other than myself.
Tomorrow, on the anniversary of your passing, I celebrate the 36 years of you in the world. Thank you for ever memory and every moment. You are in my heart always. Give me the strength to pass through this day smiling and living my joy…
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Posting...click here. LANDSLIDE by warnerbrosrecords, sung by Stevie Nicks/Fleetwood Mac.. From Youtube. This is what it says: " .Uploaded on Oct 26, 2009
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Landslide (Video)"
Landslide (Video)"
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